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what a chaos day.. dr pagi struggle to do dis and dat.. smpi nk take 5 pon xsmpt.. haihh~
but actually i love to have no time like dis.. coz it's makes me have no time to think on d 'thing' dat cant fade away from my mind since past few months ago..

am i a 'problem solver diplomat' here? (-.-) but thanx for d trust given. liaise and entertain d needs of d trio of company owners wif different tasks, really challenging me.. Mr T want dis.. Mr S want dat.. Mr I want dis n dat .. all of them want their needs at d same time! *vomit* but yeahh.. i can manage well, i guess. and again.. thanx for d trust sirs. eventhou im feel so exhausted. kalo tgn ni mcm sotong, all 8 tentacles dh digunakan sepenuhnye dh rasenyer.. (>_<) 

and.. and not to forget, congratz Project Dept Team, for d new project awarded to our company. alhamdulillah. at last, after 3years! so, pls give me some credit (intensive $_$) coz i'd helped you guys on d tendering process n till now *dis morning issue* im still helping you guys to endorse d contract.. hihii

my 2013 working day end up at 7.30pm. *fuhh* Mr I told me, he was really impressed coz at my floor, all of us still sitting on our workplace and worked diligently even office hour has passed 1 hour ago! . 

oh well said.. 

Dear boss, kindly consider our increment and u-know-what on 2014. we're hardly proving dat we're good enuff to give more to d company if you give more earning n goods to us.. hihii~ 

anddd when i reached at home.. ingatkan ank sapa la mai umah.. rupa-rupanya.. what a surprise.!

if you're still alive.. you're turn to 61 today.. hope you're juz fine there.. 
and if you're here.. at dis moment.. i wanna hug you and tell you how bad im feel rite now.. my life isnt goes well, ayah.. :'( imy.

How Do You Know When You Love Someone? That is not the question to ask. 
The question is: Do you choose to love this person or not?

http://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-5379/How-Do-You-Know-When-You-Love-Someone.html

Ironic, isn’t it? How people tell you that they’re “so sorry” and yet their actions always seem to prove otherwise.

i'd been told that, sorry is a taboo.. meaning that 'maaf' dh xde nilai dh masa kini.. but it is juz for certain ungrateful people who are not appreciated the meaning of LIFE. For me it is still have its own value. 

boleh sy tuju lagu..? 

 Sorry seems to be the hardest word by Blue feat Elton John.. :p

oh.. i miss these moment.. *uitm shah alam 2008*

how i wish i can play d guitar.. (^^,)

Life isn't easy. But take a moment to just stop, look around & breathe it all in- you'll appreciate all the little things worth living for... 

HEART.. something that delicate than rose petals. More fragile than crystal.
May the controller of all hearts mend yours and mine.

Lets dance in d rain..shall we?

2013 is near to the end..

cepat btul mase berlalu.. well, my past supplication not going so well i guess. 2013 is not really be nice wif me. what so ever, im grateful.. coz until today, im still have a mom, sister, lil bro, and childrens.. and d best part is, i have people surrounding me who(s) will always there for me when im drowning to nowhere.. i cant force people to stay in my life.. staying is a choice.. im thankful for people who choose me.. n wanna b a part of my life.. thank you.

i cheated on my fears..
broke up wif my doubts..
got engaged to my faith..
and now im marrying my dreams..

exhausted n sleepy but still cant sleep at dis time. think too much i guess?

Q : What do you want to be when you grow up?
It was so easy to answer this question back then than now.

Sometimes we need to..
stop analyzing d past..
stop planning d future..
stop figuring out precisely how we feel..
stop deciding exactly what we want..
and juz see what happens.. 

"juz be nice to others even they dont. dont b too calculative and less complaint.. bila kite jage org lain, tuhan akan jage same kite.. jgn fikir people akan balas jasa kite.. but percaye tuhan will do.. put trust in God in whatever you do.. be sincere" -SN

lovely reminder indeed.

im tend to find a way to escape but.. im lost. is like im stuck in nowhere.. feel like all burden is cast on me.. sometimes im feelin' like dying where i have boarded a plane without a pilot.

LOVE is a partnership of two unique people who bring out d very best in each other, and who know that even though they are wonderful as individuals, they are even better together..

dan bahagia yang sempurna adalah ketika kita mendapatkan apa yg kita inginkan tanpa menyakiti perasaan orang lain..

So, do you see happiness when you look at me? (>.<)

"When you want something you will try very hard to get it.. But when you finally got it, it seem like you not interest with it anymore.."

People always forget to appreciate for what they have.. until they lose it.. but only for some people.. some dont even care.. 

at 800am.. baby wee kna langgar dr belakang.. sume org kot rushing nk ke destinasi msg2.. sbr laaa!! xmenyempat2 kluar simpang.. pastu boleh buat xtau je..!! ak berenti tepi, ko boleh blah cmtu aje??! tukang lggr tu nmpk mcm foreigner. mmg rude btul!! my mom said xde pape.. but when i checked, sensor terkeluar dr soket kot. and calar la kt dat spot. arghhhhhhhhhhhhh!! bikin gua panas btuiiii!!

Hurting someone can be as easy as throwing a stone in the sea..
But do you have any idea how deep that stone can go?

adoyy.. exhausted. sleepy. but i cant sleep!! (-.-!) esk sure ngantukkk tahap dewa ke 19.. luckily bos is not around.. feuhh~ ni penangan tdoq byk sgt la ni.. weekend yg sgt xproductive. plan nk pegi hiking kononnye. dlm mimpi je la. ptg td siap mimpi mistik.. ending like a muvie.. last words i remember.. "walau apapon terjadi.. pls let's be together.." kata seorg ibu kepada anak2nye.. n i have been there too! im d one of her children? (o.O!) hahahadoyy.. kisahnye umah tu berhantu.. ni kes bace cter villa nabila n umah berhantu kt oversea dlm paper arini la ni.. smpi terbwk dlm mimpi. cis! 

i hope is not like what i think.. may everything will be juz fine..

it's really sad.. i dont know why im crying a lot.. after knew dis and dat.. might be im afraid if the things happen to me in future.. Eventhou im not in your shoe but i feel you. i can feel how pain you have to going through dis.. maybe coz He grant me d soft feeling so dat y i can feel d pain, sorrow, down from what has been told.. but i know u're stronger.

i do believe people change.. everyone have good and bad side. Dia menciptakan dunie ni dgn sebaik2nya.. Dia xkan menciptakan sesuatu yg sia2. Dia yg memegang hati manusia.. Silap manusia itu sndiri yg xkembali padaNya di saat susah mahupun senang..

i dont know what to do.. i juz can only pray the best for everyone dat i care and love.. Dia saje yg ade jawapan nye.. kenapa begitu dan begini..

well, i believe.. everyone is struggling in their own way.. as muslim.. we do and have to believe in Allah.. keep calm and make doa. face the problem wif Islam way..

i also have no idea what my future life gonna be soon.  im juz pray the best for myself and hope He makes my life easy to live.. 

erm.. the day has come.. (should i cry more?) i have no word to say and have no idea to do anymore. i'd tried to make everything going smooth and believe everything gonna b okay soon, but im wrong. im not good enuff to handle d situation. my prediction is not happen. my dear heart.. i know you're not bend anymore.. pls b strong. juz b strong.

hard to get, difficulty in maintaining.. a willingness to be selfless, to compromises and to make sacrifices.

HIDUP
adalah satu perjalanan yang panjang..
Hujungnya sejauh pandangan mata..
Adakala laluanya makin payah..
Sedangkan kaki kita mula lelah..
Dan langkah kita makin lemah..
Hanya hati yang sarat dengan keyakinan
terhadap janji dan rahmat Allah sahaja
yang akan kekal kuat dan tidak pernah merasa sendiri.

yes, im a sentimental person.. juz there is no one doesnt feel juz like what i feel it at d moment. someday, somehow.. there must be the one will appreciate my sentimental value.

Happy pre convocation adek!! ;)  i cant wait for d real one!! Our late dad will be proud of you! 
We know you'll rockin' d world someday. insyaAllah.. :') deeply from my heart, im feel lucky to b ur sister. hahahahaa. oh well. i know you understand me sumhow.. but you didnt know how to show d way you shud. :p

yesterday and today is my twin lil bros birthday! 

17th Nov and 18th Nov 1988. Lahir tgh mlm..lewat beberapa minit, tu yg dpt tarikh berlainan..

Al fatihah buat adek2 ku, Muhammad Yasir Bin Mazlan Zulkifli dan Muhammad Yusri Bin Mazlan Zulkifli.. Hope dh berjumpa ayah di sana.. Al fatihah buat arwah ayah yg dirindui.. i miss you so much ayah! :')

oh bulan..
enggan melayan diriku lagi..
pabila..
air mata membasahi pipi..
dan lagu lagu di radio
seolah olah memerli aku..
(-.-)

a part of the reason why we hold on to something so tight is because we fear something so great won't happen twice. 
but.. what if that something leave us without our consent and we cant do nothing for dat..? 

how sad.. when it's happens.. there is no word to describe d feeling..

and nothing can make we smile again unless we feel happy as that something feel at d moment..

Happy Birthday lil bro! my one and only.. May Allah bless you and give you more and more mercy, peace and love.

Not spending enough time with your family due to work? That seems to be a reality here in Malaysia. A jobstreet.com survey revealed that over 60% of Malaysians have not been able to spend enough time with their family due to long working hours while 70% of Malaysians work an extra 2 to 5 hours beyond their stipulated working hours.

Antara desakan hidup, keperluan dan tanggungjawab.. same2 penting.. blum lg cerite hak kite kpd Allah sebagai khalifah yg blum tertunai.. 

bahagianya melihat org bahagia.. dan lebih bahagia jika diri ini sendiri berasa bahagia..

hari bersilih ganti. tahun bersilih tahun.. bermcm2 cerita. bermcm2 peristiwa. kebyakkan nya duka yg menjelma.. ak cuba menjadi kuat. ak cuba menjadi tabah. dan cuba berasa bahagia dgn dugaan yg menimpa.. tp.. ak masih x menikmati bahagia sebenar.. ya.. ak pernah rs bahagia.. seseorang hadir dlm hidupku dan dia sgt membahagiakn hari2ku.. bahagia itu ada.. tapi xkekal lama.. di mana silapnya? adakah membahagiakan ku satu kesilapan? ak buntu. ak xckup baikkah sehingga xdpt merasai erti kehidupan yang bahagia di dunia ini?

rasa sedeyh, kecewa, down, gloomy begitu membebankan jiwa ini.. ak cuba menjadi kuat. melawan rasa2 ini.. tp kadangkala tumpah juga air mata. xtertahan2 lagi.. ak xckup kuat Ya Allah.. ak xckup tabah Ya Allah.. ak lemah. ak xberdaya menghadapi ujian2 ni..

bahagia.. ak harap ak akan rs bahagia itu.. x lama lagi..

hm.. dh dpt task for next event.. kate ak xde capability as a leader to handle.. tp bg jugak kt cheq. (-.-!) hadap je la.. harapan tetap same mcm yg sebelum2nye.. hope it will be success! its hard to entertain all staffs. sure ade xkena.. mase la..tmpt la.. participant la.. (-.-)

Ya Allah.. doaku utk ke sekian kalinye.. permudahkanlah urusan kami untuk projek kali ini.. semoga diperkenankan..

d boss said, there are a lot of implementation start from Nov n insyaAllah will be firm operate in 2014. sure, there are a lots of issue will be up. get ready guys. bos dh kluarkan taring. xtau la ape yg menganggu die smpi nk buat mcm ni. sure its hard to certain people. n xmustahil will bring problem to people yg jarang timbulkn masalah.. adakah karier ku di sini bakal berakhir?

oh.. today, ramai giler staff baru msuk keje.. xsempat pulak nk berkenalan.. im really feel not well. bkn sombong yer adik2. next week insyaAllah ill be in dgn perasaan yg ceria. have to build my feel. hope these 2 days will cheer me up.

Mendengar irama dan menghayati bait-bait liriknya ..
Mungkin akan membuat 1000 jiwa tersentuh ..
Kita mempunyai kisah hati kita yg tersendiri ..
Cara kita menghayati juga berbeza ..
Tetapi yang pasti ..
Lagu mengingatkn kita kepada insan yg berada dihati kita ..
Mengembalikn memori kita kepada insan yg pernah menghiasi hari2 kita ..
Dan , menghadirkan rasa rindu kepada insan yg pergi meninggalkan kita ..

Last nite, my 1 year baby girl goin upstairs..wanna visit me at my room, maybe.. i saw her (im hiding behind a wall), 
plan wanna makes her feel shock..

me : hantuuuuu..hantuuuuu.. wuuuu.. sapa suruh naik atas ha..?? (buat suara bsr, *suara hantu  la konon2nye*)
she : ha? *blur* (sambil tgk sekeliling)
my mom : *sound dr dapur* hang ingt hang sebut hantu..hantu.. die fhm ke??
me : (-.-!) *krik krik*

huh.. i cant understand wat's goin on rite now. you agree dat people have their own limit of capability.. so, dont easily make a justification! 

apa nk jd dgn situasi skrg ni?? (o.O!)

hari ni hari awk.. ntah esk hari sy pule.. *cry*

#but have to believe.. rezeki Allah yg bagi.. mereka hanya sebagai pengantara je.. be strong people! :'(

“Kita hanya mampu memandang manusia dengan mata zahir. Tetapi zahir dan batinnya Allah yang lebih tahu. Mungkin dia cuma kelihatan biasa-biasa di hadapan manusia, tetapi siapa yang tahu imannya ‘luar biasa’ di hadapanNya?”

huhh.. people can read me easily. im sorry coz i cant hide my feeling.. (T_T)

Sementara masih ada, hargailah.. bila terjadi sesuatu, yang xdijangka.. semuanya sudah terlewat..

Sometimes.. it's hard for me to understand what You really want to happen.. But i trust You. i know You will give me what is best..~

kemanakah hilangnya nikmat satu kehidupan yang menjanjikan bahagia? sedang mencari dan menanti..  bagai hilangnya satu sanubari diri.. kusam dan tidak bermaya.. seolah tiada lagi nafas untuk berlari..

honest hearts produce honest actions.

thanx for d 'nice' return!

Our entire lives, we are taught to be driven and motivated, to set high goals, that women are just as capable as men, that societies are built on the backs of strong women, that we should never give up our dreams because we face obstacles. We convince ourselves that it’s not the school or its rank that define our success, it’s how we use the knowledge we gain. 

Then we grow up. We are told that good girls live with their parents until they marry. Most of us comply, many reluctantly so, but we comply.We are aware that we are single. We are aware that he has not come. Some have come, but he hasn’t. “Don’t worry, you’re a good girl: smart, pretty, religious, educated, from a good family, nice, and any guy would be lucky to have you.” You know most of them don’t see it that way. You’re too tall or short, not curvy enough or too chubby, too argumentative or too hard to read, too ambitious, too assertive, too strong-willed. And old.

“Why aren’t you married? Why are your priorities so out of whack? You’re getting old and all of your friends are married! Hurry up, time is running out!”

Tell us we’re being picky. Tell us there is no perfect man. Tell us our standards are impossible. Tell us to compromise.

Say what you want. The truth is: you don’t understand.

Adoyyla.. hari ni saje dh baper kali dgr lagu ni.. n for sure ak akn gelak terkekek2 teringatkan my boy. smart boy indeed! cpt btul tgkap ape yg die tgk, dgr.. haih.. if xkawal dr kecik ssh jgak nnt.  he's really clever and adorable. kalo buat slh, xsmpi hati mrh lebih2. haha. sme goes to adik! haih. mama ya doakan both of u menjadi anak yg soleh/solehah, bijak dan menyenangkan.. :D

pilihan sesuatu yang kite mahukan.. kesempatan sesuatu yang diberikan.. 

mana satu sbnrnye yang memberi kebaikan untuk kehidupan? takut tersalah buat pilihan.. tapi bagaimana pule jika diberikan kesempatan yang kite tidak mahukan.. 

namun kedua2nya merupakan satu ketentuan, bukan?

pls make me smile again.. n always there for me..

i have try to remain in control, and to stay cool under pressure when others are frantic. But, despite those positives, i’ve started to view my crying as an encumbrance. i am a deeply sensitive person, but doesnt mean i wanna cry like a baby.. the truth is, i just have loose tear ducts. 

dear k zuey..

u looked stunning today. i love ur wedding reception. good place. good food. good bridal bed decoration. everything's awesome.

xsgka.. perkenalan kite yg singkat around year 2007 di sebuah archy firm, d mana ak menyebokkn diri di ctu, membawa kite ke persahabatan yg sgt erat. till family knal each other. even thou we're not really do keep in touch all d time, but u're always there for me..when i was down, in pain, sadness, gloomy n not to forget, we also had been through the happy moment together too. ;) thanx for ur care n encouragement. i really adore yourself because u know-wat-i-mean. very struggle n independent woman dat i ever know. 

xsgka jgak..perkenalan u n Luq yg singkat akhirnye smpi ke jinjang pelamin.. :) Luq really want to be a part of ur life.. n he's seem a good man. funny and kind. Allah know best for u sis.. well, as what we had been 'talk over' before, u deserve it! i xnk lgkah bendul.. hahaha. i really hope both of u will live happily till jannah. amin.

 i love u dunya n akhirah. my unbiological sister, buddy n best supporter. doakan adik u ni pulak k.. :D 

your urgency is not my priority. tq

Just because someone doesnt love you the way you think they should, doesnt mean they dont love you with all they are..~

Manusia boleh berubah nasib, hampir sekelip mata, jika Allah izinkan. Justeru, jangan di tangisi nasib yg malang & jgn berbangga dgn pencapaian yg di dapati. Moga kita sering redha & bersyukur. - FK

"im really dissapointed..!"

ya.. people dont see d brightness side.. pity to everybody.. nothing much to say because too tired to hear dis n dat. when d war has begin.. let's see who will win n who will lose.. nice game isnt it?

so when d battle will be start? 

Adooyyyyyy.. sakit pulak hati kite.. suddenly feel like dis.. d unwanted feelin'.. wut d helll is goin' on??
this world isnt mad..  but d people who live  in it! huh. be strong selfie. dont waste d tears!

patience is not d ability to wait, but d ability to keep a good attitude while waiting..

what a hectic dayyy~ nk pengsan rasenyer.. (-.-)

People cry for a reason..You may cry because you are too happy or too sad. Some people cry when they are very angry too. Letting your tears flow freely gives you a sense of freedom to be true to your feelings and to yourself. It is a surrender to your emotions that remind you that you are human and you are entitled to your emotions, whether they are pleasant or not..


BUT.. (i cry of the translating documentations in Malay to English version since this morning until now) and what the hell of this computer resolution effect!! it's juz because of you TechnoGulf! huwarghhh~ a very good evening everybody . pls have a day without tears..~ (-.-!)

maaf.. aku bukan seekor sotong.. (-.-) boleh siapkan 8 keja dlm satu masa.. harap maklum.