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wow.. it is so surprisingly me! really unexpected when d artwork had been reached to 160++ 'likers'.. i dnt knw whats happened. it's has been promoted maybe.. but im glad d artwork had been accepted by all. thank you! thank you! :p

and it's a bit surprisingly.. on d incident happened juz now. (>_<) it's funny anyway.. hihii. lets see.. whats gonna be.. May d Almighty blessed all of us. :)

it's also surprisingly me.. suddenly get a called.. kononnye randomly ak terpilih dpt pakej percutian 6hari 5mlm ke mana2 destinasi luar negara termsuk semenanjung Malaysia. Sabah Sarawak xboleh plak. yer kerrhhh niii? siap suh collect esk sumwhere at klcc plak tuu.. kalo btuii, antaq mai umah je la kn.. haha. sapa la agaknya give my detail tu.?!(-.-)

and dis is not surprisingly pon. haha! Happy Birthday and Happy Retirement to my cikgu n mom!!! and and Happy Holidays sepanjang tahun ni dan tahun tahun tahun tahun tahun berikutnyer.. insyaAllah.. no need to go to work anymore..tp duet masukkkk setiap bulannnn.. ini sgt seronok! dan membuatkan sy rs jeles sungguh! untunglah!! oh.. i need to get a gov job jgak la mcm ni. (-.-!)

what a great feelin'.. start up my day wif a funny msg from my buddy.

"heeyyy.. awk d sana.. ape cter? dh ok ker dr smlm smlm smlm smlm smlm punye cter?"

"yeahh.. i guess so babe.. but besela kn.. i pon manusia.. punya hati dan perasaan. kdg kale kalah jugak la dgn perasaan ni. kluaq jugak la ayaq mata.." *suddenly im feel bad n wanna cry*

"youuuu.. i xkata pon you dinasour. sapa kata you dinasour tu? meh cni i sekeh kepala dia"

"hahaahaa. bang*ng! thnx for cheer my start up of d day. i xberenti sengih dr td kot!"

"la.. awat hg doh sengeh ngenyeh ni? satgi org kata hg gila! dh2 p wat keja. tc babe."

hmm.. mslh bertimpa2.. xpela.. anggapla rezeki kn.. hope dat mr can help me.. is it, dis is d time to me to show my canine again??

welcome back ayah's gf! ure most welcome to stay wif us.. kesiannye terpaksa lalui 'kehidupan' yg sukar back to several years ago.  i had fight for you what! but im juz a tiny girl wif a big head of tempered and ego on dat time. dey dont afraid of me pon! *grrrr*

 i really wish to have u.. depends on mom's decision. im also dilemma wanna let go which one of u n u.. but decision has to made up. we cant afford both.  :'( 

oh.. how i wish i can have dat moment too.. :)

http://www.viralnova.com/married-and-dating/

MM : Cuti x g perarakan ke?
Me : nope. last rs sambutan maulidur rasul time sekolah rasanye.. (-.-!) lps tu berarak dlm umah je la.. hee~
MM: umah tu bkn berarak!
Me: hahahaa.. keje ke weyh?       
MM: offfff day. g padang ni.. antor wakil.
Me: wakil? oo bagusla cuti. ingat keja. *pukui abes project ni. :p *
MM: wakil berarak kt pdg.
Me: adoyy. pening la ckp dgn kamu ni.. arghhh. ke dating weyh? *ank mami maii satu.. :p*
MM: hahaha. kt pdg kota makan pasembor. tgh cri awek duk site. xjumpe lg ni. nk ikut spec kitorg.
Me: pergh. gataii menghela! nk keja ka nk mengenyeh?! nk dahi licin jaa.
MM:  gataii ckit ja.. licin sgt tu xla.. nk cari ank mami jer ni.. hu huu
Me: oo, kalo ade jerawat boleh la apply ni. sy dh ckup syarat kn. ank mami pon yer.. hahahhaa
MM: aikkk ngaku plak ank mami. dlu xnk ngaku, ckp org kl.
Me: half blood!
MM: Half price 50%
Me: *haihh ade gak kna tepuk dahi kang*

You're not reading this status by accident. Allah has decreed for you to be reading this so pay attention to what you're about to read.....

Allah loves you more than your own mother does. He is more Merciful to you than you are to yourself. He knows what is best for you. Allah loves it when you repent and He loves to forgive. Allah has blessed you with everything you have, and what you don't have is also a blessing from Allah. He gives you countless opportunities to repent and turn back and He is quick to forgive.

You didn't read that by accident. Allah Willed for you to read it. So whatever your test and your weakness - turn back to Allah.

"The word “love” in the Qur’an appears on over 90 places but interestingly it doesn’t define the word love but speaks about the very first consequence of love…”committing.” Islam talks about commitment; if you truly love, then commit, if you do not commit then your claim of love is not real."

huh.. mcm mana nk ckp. mmg sakit hati dgr problem yg raise up lately.. dr pelbagai sudut plak tu. even bkn main 'target' tp terkena jugak tempias2 nya.. but i think d problem is not harm me so bad. im still can handle dat situation. like what my mom said before.. semua tmpt ade mslhnye. atas diri kite dpt cope dat problem or not. sume nyer atas diri sndri. if you want, take it. if you dont, leave it.

im still confusing. do i need to get out from here? sbb target ak utk life skg bkn psl kerjaya. even sbnrnyer ak pon dh rs kurang selesa to stay here. benda yg nk dielakkan drpd terjadi tp suddenly happened jugak. ingat sng ke nk lupakan cmtu je? fuuh, gile la hebat kalo berjaya if easily to forget it. oh..mgkn bnda ni bese bg sesetgh org.. ak ingat ak ni kuat. tp sbrnyer x pulak..

back to probs, mmg sentap giler dgn 'usikan' org. i juz do my job. to promote company corporate branding is under me secara xlgsg. bkn bermkna ak syg giler kt dia. ak dibayar utk menaikkan reputasi company dgn cara media promotion. not only doing office task based on day to day operation. i have extra job on dat task, compare with others. sbb ni atas arahan company owner sendiri. 

lg satu, sbb ak byk dgr keluhan dr colleagues..so dat im trying to make them happy eventhou setiap kali event, ak la org plg bz dan penat nk lyn karenah dorg dan silly things happened suddenly  . yes, indeed. my intention juz only want to make them happy sbb keje dkt site sgt thrill compare dgn office. sbb tu ak xkesah spend my weekend doing remeh temeh thingy and full swing on 1st dinner dkt GH dlu eventhou KPI ak utk dat task dpt low due to internal matter. tp ade org kesah? TAK.. sbb bkn hal dorg. xpe. pdn muke ak jgak. tp tula.. bile buat event, ade xdpt join due a ton of works (its ok) tp yg sengaja xnak bg commitment tu? bile xbuat, asking dis n dat. 

as a 'sigh' counter to owner, i have to lend my ear to hear his grieves regards to dis matter.. adat la tu, manusia xpernah berpuas hati selagi xkena dgn ape yg die mau. sume org ade own desire. dan opkoz xsama; katenye.

sapa kata ak xde intention to leave dis 'lovely' organization? its only a matter of time. im juz appreciate little things that happened in my life. im appreciated to be a part of this organization. im appreciated to have lovely people surrounding me like now who will always give me a courage when i down, pray for my happiness, and treat me well . most of em are from d organization's buddies. im appreciated to have a 'leader' like Mr I. S and T who are give me trusts to do their P&C matters regard to organization and believe i can handle their urgent needs well.

yer, btul..setiap tmpt ade mslhnye.. d only serius matter for me at dis place, only on earning issue. i can handle a lots of incoming ad hoc job. but id been paid only by 'prescribed fee'. im not entitled to claim my fee on extra time, im not entitled to have allowance and have a limited expenses claim. but im still can survive coz i have no social life to spend much money. problem raise when i need to use money for commitment matter as roadtax, self need and future unexpected issue. plus vacation n my own majlis kawen?! 

one of my fren said to me.. a non muslim buddy. 

"kalo kite buat kerja kurang dr apa bayaran kite dpt, berdosa like mkn gaji buta but. kalo kite buat kerja lebih drpd kite dpt, we will get pahala".

 i do agree wif dat statement, so dat ak xde rs bersalah sbb sumtimes ak xfulfill d extra task sepenuhnyer. ak pon tgh kumpul bekalan akhirat jugak.sbb ak ada agama n i believe in my religion's guide. seimbangkan life dunia akhirat ak dgn cara ak sndiri? Adakah ak GILA? 

money is not everything but everything is money.

as i said.. my current main target is not a profession..i have something on life issue that bother myself regards future life to think more .. ohh.., do i need take a move now? coz i hate to b in dis unknown unstable mixed feeling. 

what a nice morning motivate. sumhow i feel You speak wif me through like these thought.

“You must convince your heart that whatever Allah has decreed is most appropriate and most beneficial for you.”—Imam al-Ghazali 

"Whatever disappears from your life that you thought was the reason for your happiness, be sure that Allah took it away from you before it became the reason for your misery".

my supplication..

# have a blast day everyone. i hope d problem here will be solve soonest or otherwise, i will make a move.

hm.. xtau mcm mana nk habaq.. tp mmg rasa 'lain' mcm laa.. since 1st day of 2014.. even dat day, im not working.. but masa bgun tdoq pg tu.. rs la aura baru.. perasaan baru..~ n might be spirit baru??

perasaan tu rs mcm nk p sekolah baru, masuk semester baru universiti, keje tmpt baru. apa yg boleh kata, perasaan tu.. it's a good feeling la. (^^,) bkn stress, bkn chaos, bkn sedeyh.. alhamdulillah.. but suppose to rs cmtu since msuk awl hijrah yg lalu.. 1 Muharam 1435H (5Nov2013). ni muncul masa thn baru kalendar gregorian. (-.-!) might be coz, dlm tahun gregorian ni, i will turn to dua puluh errr.. err.. tuuu juh? 

time flies fast!! (o.O) ohh, rasenyer mcm bru semalam abes spm. adoyyy! 

and happy birthday to my unbioligical brother.! :D he is good man indeed. who are always helps me to get through d ordeal moments and all.. thank you for ur support n courage. ohh.. n not too forget, he is my rowdy partner too. haha.. yer, ak mmg suke 'gaduh' wif d close one. (^^,) happy birthday bro! have a blast one! Hope you'll always happy wif ur family. kesian berjauhan kembali dgn dorg.. :'( anggapla rezeki anak2. jgn nk mengeluh jer!! ak tepuk dahi hg satgi.!

So anyway, how 6 of 365 days of 2014 treating you so far? mine juz fine. alhamdulillah. :)

ok, sbb xboleh tdoq, and sdg merencanakan resolution baru.. saje mengenang kembali resolution yg lps..

10 years after school, what's my achievement.. hmm.. 

1. Further Study

After school, i wish to continue my study in architecture course. alhamdulillah. in July 2005, id been selected 1 of thousands applicant (who need to go through interview and drawing test conducted by uitm). i am d 1 of only 90 selected students. fuhh. have to really convince dat we're worthy to be chosen.. (o.O) kena speaking bagai. n present something to d interviewer.. *ntah ape ak membebel dat time ak xingat!.haha* dan bile difikir2kan balik.. rs impress jgak, bile lecturer always remain on d selected thingy when kitorg down mse crit session. hihii.. and id been located at Seri Iskandar. (60 of us to be placed at Seri Iskandar, d remains 30 students at Shah Alam)

    

 ni sume gmbr kt uitm shah alam.. yg dekat seri iskandar terlalu comot utk ditayang.. hihii~

2. New Environment

At d middle of journey to b an architect (hahaha), im feel unhappy n down. i juz wanna be near to my family. d homesick begin. mase tu kna sindrom alahhh you know kan when we're teenager feel down becoz of what.. tee hee~ (-.-!) . and what's a surprise news! suddenly my lecturers said all of us (students only :p) will be transfer to shah alam on d final year. 
yeay huu! it is because, my course had been upgraded to Sarjana Muda Sains Senibina (Bachelor of Science Architecture) instead of Diploma Senibina masa interview dulu. My lecturers said they're fight for dat thing for many years with uitm academic mgmt due to our course takes 4years to grad and some sort of academic issue raise up. so, since dat year (2006), uitm DO NOT offer Diploma of Architecture for any longer yer adik2.. xpe. even ill b transfer to Shah Alam in 2008, but i can wait. sy kn penyabar orgnyer.. haha. Seri Iskandar isnt bad place for me pon.. i juz want to be near wif my family.. 
dats all..


3. Grad on time

huh.. study life in d university isnt easy. bkn xboleh buat.. tp.. it's some sort of konflik diri. bile dari kebudak2kn nk jadi dewasa..all thing need to be done by urself n independent.. konflik kwn2.. konflik keluarga.. hmm. my supplication on dat time.. oh please.. Allah.. pls takdirkan ak utk grad on time. dh xlarat nk layan sume mslh ni. i need to break myself from dis unknown feeling n situation. n Alhamdulillah. i made it!! no more stuck in exam thingy. kertas sangkut buat ak stress! study mcm nk mampuih..balancing dgn crit session thingy..huh. masa tu dh rs architecture have no life. :'( even xgrad dgn flying colours or ANC thingy but im grateful. sorry to my buddy, coz xdpt grad same.. uh huu~

Officially graduated on 15th October 2009. 

Alhamdulillah. thanx Allah for dis opportunity. :)

4. Menjejakkan kaki ke negeri/negara luar

yeahhh. d best part study archy ni..sbb setiap sem ade aje trip ke sane sini sinun.. hihii. yup. setiap sem yer uolls! xmcm course lain. setiap sem kitorg ade trip plg minima 2 trip kot. weeeweeeweee~ sbnrnyer utk site study and all.. alaah.. smbil menyelam minum la air kn..~ 

1st year xbest. asik p Lumut - Pangkor, Pangkor - Lumut. haihh.. dr tmpt tu tgh construction, smpi dh siap. situuu je la tmpt kitorg p melukis, site study, and mengenyeh.. opps.. x..tu ak xterlibat. :p Adoy.. i cant remember exact time we go, tp sepanjang study, tmpt ak p:-

1. Sabah - Kota Kinabalu
2. Sarawak - Kuching
3. Cameron Highlands
4. KL (fuhh.. kena jln kaki sekitar KL d bln puasa..what d ?? haih..mls nk ingat)
5. Penang - cover area chowrasta road and nearby
6. Perak - Gua Tempurung/Lumut/Pangkor/Bota 
7. Melaka - Jonker Street
8. Selangor - PJ, yes, petaling jaya.. haha.site study near to Digi Mall.
9. Putrajaya - rs biase jer sbb byk kali p.. :p
10. Indonesia - Bali! yeahh.. trip ni plg ak suka.. sbb ak mmg p sane utk jln2 cuci mate semata2 yer. ikut studio (group/class) org lain. tp at last lecturer ak suh buat and present some sort of presentation of Bali utk studiomate. sbb dorg xp, only me n other 2 of us..  (-.-!) but its ok. gua xde hal.

Bali beach twilight scenery.. im lovin' it.!

wif balinese.. students form udayana university. 

seblah kiri me is Ria, vokalis Nero Band (local band in Bali)

and opkoz yg bertudung tu sume kwn2 uitm ak yer.. hehe

huhh.. ade lg ker? serius xingat.. i cant recall all. sbb byk sgt moment.. :p

and last 2 years ago i had a great time with my colleagues at Jakarta and Bandung and past 3 years and last year, i had a precious moment wif family at Langkawee, Penang, JB and Singapore. :) so, i hope my new resolution to go to Mecca will b answer soon, perhaps.. insyaAllah.

wilujeng sumping! mean selamat datang.. X)

kenangan trip ni yg best mase celebrate besday staff bln 1.. tajab, syakir n lg sorg xingt. :p

weolls buat surprise utk dorg, kuar dr dapur restoran sambil nyanyi lagu besday in indonesia version,

 d tour guide, bapak joseph (ketuk botol dgn sudu) n adita (ketuk tudung periuk), waiter n waitress ketuk periuk, kuali, pinggan n cawan besi, while me n bos' s wife bwk cakes. *malu plak join ketuk periuk bagai.. :p*

5. Wear a bracess

Pls.. jgn gelak.. mmg mcm nth hape2 punye resolution kn. ya i know.. tp im sure sumeorg ade reso yg pelik2 jgak kn.. :p i wanna wear a braces since school ages. tp my mom xmau layan. :'( sbb die ckp unneccessary thing utk buang duet. huwaa. xpe.. i made it for my own, mummy. after got my 1st job. suddenly d opportunity came. id planed sumthing n gigih kumpul duet kot.. haha. (at dat time braces price started from RM4k n above) tp.. dpt peluang lg baik dr ape ak plan. mean xkuar duet much. thnx to my dear buddy for d helps.

erkk.. jarang amik gmbr nmpk braces. segan pasaipa xtau.. :p

6. Can drive and get a car!

After 2 years dpt license, baru berani bwk keta.. haha. hmm.. i got sindrom penakuit nk mampuih like my mom.. yeah.. exactly. tp kirenye ak berjaya la mengatasi ketakutan tu compare wif her! hihii. and i own a car. :) even it is not my dream car.. but im grateful. tu pon rs mcm nk mampuih byr bulan2. (-.-!)

what else? huh.. kna tgk balik resolution yg lps2.. rs terlalu mengantuk plak d kala ini.. almost 3 am kot.. hahadoyy~ ok, sekian saje entry utk kali ni. (^.^)

what a best feeling.. when ur artworks has been used as company corporate branding promotion.! hihii~ alhamdulillah. thanx for d opportunity given. im feel blast n happy coz people like my design. coz it is not easy to convince people and meet 'clients' expectation.. :p

and hello who may concern.. ehem.. pls give me d designing task more often! coz im lovin' it! :D